This semester (Semester 2, 2015) marks the third time that I’ve attempted the EDC3100 – ICT and Pedagogy course. the reasons I haven’t been able to ever complete the course are all to do with the professional experience.
First attempt- my blue card was due to expire during the course, so I sent in my forms to renew it in time for my prac (in February). It took two months for it to be renewed, so of course I had to drop the course.
Second attempt- As I live a fair distance from all campuses, I have always arranged my own placements. The school I had worked at for the previous prac told me a couple of weeks before I was due to start that they could not accommodate me. I was in a mad rush to find a new school (e-mailing about 10 different primary schools), before the university contacted me saying they found a school- the Friday before I was to start. When I got to the school, the deputy wasn’t there and nobody was able to help me. I went home that day and dropped the course (again!), as it was the last day to drop it without failing the course.
Third (and most recent) attempt- I had finally found a school that could take me on, and I felt like I was getting a good rapport with my mentor teacher. I unfortunately had a couple of days off, and when I came back, a representative from the university came to have a meeting with myself, my mentor teacher, and the deputy teacher. Without going into details, it was (put simply) disastrous. I ended up flustered and crying and sent home as an at-risk student.
Of course, all of these problems and run-arounds have made me very stressed for my upcoming prac this semester. I feel as though I’m just not “cut out” for teaching and my self-esteem and confidence as taken a huge plummet.
This has all just been a bit of a rant to let out my feelings (without going into too much personal details in case future schools or teachers see this and think negatively of me as a result).